10 Years Gone...

I can't believe tomorrow will mark ten years since I lost my Jenny Bear. It will be harder than ever tomorrow, but as I do every time I'm missing her, I will try to remember the good times and be thankful for the time I had with her... I will try, as always not to mourn her death but to celebrate her life... people say that it gets easier with time, but I haven't felt that so much. Oh well... Breathe in, breathe out...

It is especially hard right now, as I am preparing for my wedding, knowing she would have been in my wedding party. I like to think of her now as my angel of honor; I know she will be there with me on my special day, celebrating with me. I talk to my fiance about her often, I know she would have loved him.

I still miss her so much and losing her is still so surreal. Your "freak" still loves you, grrrrl...

I'm really not sure how I feel about this...

Last night's new "South Park" about Britney Spears was really... disturbing. It wasn't funny, but I don't think it was trying to be. It was definitely a condemnation of the people who 'handle' her but... I don't know. It really upset me, as her whole life has in the last year, but the episode, I just, I don't know how to explain it.

If you missed it, you can watch it on line, just click the link above... *sigh*

Another one bites the dust?!?

Is it just impossible for a man to be a politician AND a faithful husband? I know it’s a difficult concept for men in general, but I’ve seen it happen. Please GOD don’t let there be any skeletons in the closet of the Obama marriage…

Prayer of thanks

Forget everything else-- politics, movies, careers, etc. For just a moment, forget it all. I am so blessed and I just want to take a moment to thank the universe for all my gifts, most of all for the series of events which lead to me finding my soul mate (no matter how cheesy it sounds). I am so incredibly lucky to have my boy, my partner, my puppy's daddy! ;) He is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I'd be lost without him, but with him, I am life, I am joy, I am found. I AM BLESSED. So thanks...

No matter what else happens or how crazy things (i) get, I promise to always be grateful for the incredible gift that is my fiancé…

Do the right thing!

I really hope no one I know is voting for 'Hil Dog' today. I don't think I even stand looking at her face for four more years!!!

Credit where credit is due.

Gotta thank my dad for his comment on "Juno." And he brings up a good point about parenting; sometimes the best thing parents can do is just not throw their kids out! But seriously, just loving them and putting up with them when they're going through weird, quirky or rebellious phases is so huge. In her Oscar acceptance speech, Diablo Cody thanked her family for loving her "just the way I am." That’s the best thing a parent can do. Like the quote below that Juno’s dad says to her.

My dad has always been great at that too—he’s always loved me no matter what color lipstick I wear, no matter how punky my wardrobe might be (he always says I'd look pretty, even in a burlap sack), no matter who I hang out with—I always know my dad loves me and is proud of me. He never judges me or makes me feel bad about myself. Whatever mistakes I might make, all he ever cares about is that I am happy and good to people. Whenever I made a stupid mistake like getting into a fender bender or spending a little more than I should, he always forgives me and says something like, “So you did something dumb? Well, you won’t do it again. You didn’t do anything cruel…”

Thanks, Daddy.

Totally Boss

Saw “Juno” again tonight. Loved it even more the second time around. Psyched to say the fiancé loved it too! It makes me so happy when he loves things I love; after all, “He is the cheese to my macaroni.” I think it’s official… I have baby fever! =D No, I can wait a bit longer. Lord knows we've got to get a bigger apartment first. But I am so excited for us to be parents; I swear we are going to rock so hard!!! Seriously, we talk about it all the time.

I am also reminded what a wonderful, glorious, magical thing adoption can be. I can’t wait for us to have a baby of our own, but if for some reason we can’t, I know we will find people out there who want us to take care of their little one as much as we want to take care of him or her.