Could it have been me? (Squeaky Part 2)

When I was 18 I met a man who was a little crazy... I'd never done certain things before I met him... I’d barely done anything before I met him... within months of meeting him I thought I was in love and had tried many new “experiences”...

I took big risks, I watched a lot of crazy movies, I had many mad thoughts...
if he and I and our friends had been just a little further over the edge... if I had taken a few more trips... could it have been me?